As the years have passed by in high school, I am still the same person who stepped into the doors of the unknown, clenching my books to my chest, and carrying big aspirations for the future. It was no doubt that I had plenty of goals in mind, and had a definitive image on what level and what outcome I wanted to ensue from my goals. I wanted to have a perfect GPA with great test scores, and leap confidently into a top university. And while I thought I had the power to shape my realities, I was blindsided all along about the real world outside of my living vicinity, as well as the true scope of people’s lives beyond school. When I look back, I feel as if I have been somewhat brainwashed by the results I was pressured to achieve (some of it self-induced), and if it all really meant anything. By all means I can see the positivity of my sheer discipline that school rooted in me, but I have started to gain light on the other paths to success in life.
But when failure fell upon myself, that’s when everything had crumbled yet opened my eyes in a wiser way. It became hard for me to draw the line of where schooling mattered for material/external success, or for peoples own personal gains, such as learning out of interest. And while this question still lingers in my mind, I guess I have come closer to an answer, based on hard moments of trial and experimentation. I can hope that high school is not a mere cut-off point for success and failure later on life. I have been fortunate enough to have met wonderful people who have sought the many opportunities around them, and benefited from some unexpected moment that was a product of their resilience. The point I’m trying to make is that you have the power to shape your destiny, and that one four-year period will not be the determinant of your capacity to reach fulfillment. In some ways I am grateful for the first B that I received, because it gave me the strength to combat undesired setbacks and to use that as fuel for future success in the future. It also gave me a stronger philosophical mindset about life, in that life was more a measurement of how we responded to things that didn’t go our way, and looking to find fulfillment of success through alternative pathways.